it's all a bit confusing...

...impossible at best.

I'm a bit overwhelmed at the moment.
Overwhelmed with what college I'm going to transfer to,
looking for a job,
and getting ready for my brother's wedding which is in 17 DAYS!
I am so not ready.

For any of it (mostly the wedding).

College:
1) I fear being far away from all my friends and family and being...alone...with no friends.
2) I'm afraid I'll choose the WRONG college.

Job:
If someone were to just hand me a great job, I'd be happy,
but looking for one stresses me out.

Wedding:
I'm afraid I've gained a few pounds since I last tried on the dress, and I have awful tan lines which don't go well with a strapless dress. I hope it's not selfish to want to look good on my brother's wedding day. I just don't want to look back at photos in a few years and say "EWW!"

I've been feeling down the last few days...all these things running around in my mind. I've been thinking about AHLOT of stuff, wishing I could write it all down but being too lazy cuz it's so much.

On a bright note, my mom gave me this really great devotional, I forget the name, but it's kinda all about how to have a devotional. I feel like I have gotten out of the rhythm of spending time with God and I wasn't really sure where to start again. So it was me praying and journaling. I feel like I'm slowly coming out of my rut.

Will write more soon :D
All Love,
Jamie